Four days to surgery tomorrow. The countdown begins in earnest? I'm definitely getting more antsy and wishing time to go by faster! Especially since my resolve to follow my pre-op diet explicitly is weakening. I read and saw the information from people who've had surgery, saying they're "tired" of just drinking protein shakes or desperately wanting something to chew. I'm not sure that's where I am, but I definitely want something to eat! The casserole I made last night. Pizza, doughnuts, candy, a sub sandwich, anything that I can't have. At one point, I pondered if someone near getting Covid would be so bad... because my surgery would be delayed and I could eat again! Horrible isn't it? I'm not even that hungry. This is how I know that I won't lose weight without the surgery. I've barely made it two weeks! I know I'm in an extreme restriction phase that isn't sustainable, but in the past, it's always been like this. Succe
Really, it's 5 and a half, given that half of this day is over. I'm not as nervous as I was before I started the pre-op diet. Maybe it's the lack of calories fogging my brain or maybe it's that I've done this diet for 9 days, turning down multiple opportunities to engage in some unhealthy food. Or maybe I'm just ignoring everything in a rush to get things ready for after surgery. The preparation has resulted in shopping and cleaning. I'm really hoping that I won't be one of those people who have a lot of pain or are very weak. But if I am, I'll be ready. At least, with everything I can be ready with - there are so many unknowns that I can't prepare for... will I drink enough? Will I be able to get around ok? Will I be able to choke down the protein shakes? Is there any way to really prepare for something so unknown?